Sunday, November 30, 2008

Victim/Culprit???

A shadow over my head grew in size engulfing me in that darkness...
Like bonds that held my hands tied and kept my feet frozen...
It was the shadow of hopelessness, eclipsing my bright faith in myself...
It was the shadow of grief, plaguing my world of happiness...
And somewhere deep within I was shouting, to remove the bondages and be set free...
In a vain effort i tried hiding it from all, and in all this confusion, they saw a different me...
They saw a selfish, hungry man; not the one they could trust...
They saw an ambition, a fire of desire, an ever burning lust...

I realized it was my failure, a risk I shouldn't have taken...
When the chances were more of failure, thinking about them everyone was shaken...

However, I could not have just let it go, whether you judge me today right or wrong...
But do tell me where were you that day when I was left all so alone...
When no one supported me, held my hand or even spoke a friendly tone...
When I was crying instead of celebrating...
When she left us all for her last journey even before she could see her child breathing...

All you did was think and talk, but no one dared to make a move...
While in that incubator, she lied quietly, waiting for her mother's love...
Waiting for her to take her away from those tubes, wires and pipes...
The God had played a cruel game with my darling's life...
Her heart had betrayed her  just like her mother...
She needed help or else she would face that pain forever...

What else could I have done, you tell me?
What was my fault, how would you punish me?
When I have given the biggest punishment to myself...
When Gods have conspired against me and my life...
Who can punish me more, who has a bigger might...
What else can you take away from me, now that I have lost everything...
My hopes, my desires and my life, cut away by a blade...
From me, on my very operation bed...
Lying cold and silent... DEAD..........



This always gives me cold shivers whenever I read this. Tell me whether u liked my attempt or not.....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

5 Days To Go.......

Time Flies............ That's all I will say. It was just some time back that I had started preparation for CAT. I have till date not been able to remember the full form of it.

Is it a) Common Admission Test    b) Common Aptitude Test       c) Combined Admission Test      d) Combined Aptitude Test         e) None of these

And just like all the tests where I have started perspiring after seeing the question paper, I feel the same about it. The fact is I am very nervous and do not know what else to write.

16th November --- Waiting for It.......................